Bliss and Tears

What is Playing on the iPod? Call Up the Homies - Ludacris

After a relatively uneventful Thanksgiving, I stayed up ridiculously late last night. This morning, I was still awake at 3:00, reading. While some of my friends and loved ones were up, probably in line waiting for a Black Friday sales location to open their doors, I was curled up in bed reading. This morning, coffee was obviously a priority and a need as calling as oxygen.

A sleep-deprived Candace is like David Banner in The Incredible Hulk. "Don't make me angry. You wouldn't like me when I am angry." Needless to say, it has been a well-caffeinated day.

My house has been in relative order after the Thanksgiving cleaning frenzy, the dishes are loaded in the dishwasher and there is no pressure to do anything today. Obviously, my mind, unable to exist in a pressure-free environment, keeps going back to Rebecca and Christian. I have put Natalie and Rob to bed for a little while, having restarted the query process. Now, my mind is somewhere in Raleigh in a house with Rebecca, Christian and Jared. Unfortunately, the storyline has progressed to the point where it is time to torture the couple a little bit. Naturally, a change in music is in order.

I erased my iTunes playlist for my iPod and created another one. I erased my whole library and got the songs to put me in the tortured love mood. The playlist is short and consists of the following.

Let It Go - Cavo
My Little Secret - Cavo
The Flame - Cheap Trick
Never Think - Rob Pattinson
Far Away - Nickelback
Hands to Heaven - Breathe
Unfaithful - Rihanna
Last Kiss Goodbye - Hinder

I need the sad music to put me in the mood to do the things I am about to do.

I have to do some things to Christian and Rebecca that I am not happy with. As far as the story line goes, it is great. As far as being an author goes, creating a world revolving around two characters that I am crazy about, hurting them drives me crazy. If that sounds insane, ask any fiction author that you may know if they enjoy harming their characters. Chances are pretty good that you will find a couple that do not like it at all.

Why the title of this blog? Bliss and Tears? If I am going to bitch about hurting Rebecca and Christian, where does the bliss come in? Simply put, with writing. I have turned on my desk top and I hear the motor running. Knowing I am about to go and create more makes me itchy. When I used to smoke, there was a certain feeling when I knew I had a cigarette break coming up at work. I got excited, sort of jonesing for a fix. That is the feeling I have now. I have not worked for a couple of days with all of the Thanksgiving preparations going on, so I have a couple of hours where I can go to that Raleigh neighborhood. Even though I am not going to be doing Rebecca and Christian any favors this night, I am so damned excited to be writing, I am going to end this blog now.

Until next time.